My name is Chinwe, I
am 26 years old, I never graduated from the university, simply because I was stupid
and careless.
On my 24th birthday, I received a blackberry
phone as a gift, have always wanted one. It was like a right of passage, my ex-boyfriend got
it for me, he was a student like me, didn’t have a job, and I really never
cared to ask as he could afford it. My concern at that point was that I had
finally arrived. Other girls in my hostel had blackberries and I would always
get pissed when I heard sounds of pings and messages coming into their phones
at all hours and I would stare at my Nokia phone and wish I could throw it
away, but half bread they say is better than none, so I hoped and even fasted
to get a blackberry phone, looking back now, if I had the opportunity, I’d have
a land line with no internet activity what so ever, anyway I got the blackberry
phone and even got free
Anyway, I became
addicted to my blackberry and also my social media applications, and since I
had constant access, I quickly gained enough followers, and especially guys,
mostly because I had a lot of erotic pictures on my timeline, I was popular,
finally I felt I was the main girl, everyone wanted to follow me, I didn’t care
if it was virtual, it felt good, checking out my profile and having well over
8,000 followers, more than half of which were guys, but one particular guy
caught my attention, till this day I don’t know what made him stand out, but we
got chatty, he sent me direct messages and I replied, he was quiet a gentleman
, and I can’t remember him ever asking for a nudè picture unlike the rest of them,
so this made me comfortable with him, his name was Tobi, he said he was a
doctor , I didn’t have any cause to doubt him, he had extensive knowledge and
even gave me some medical advice from time to time, we eventually moved from
twitter to blackberry chat, we chatted all the time, I got so comfortable with
him, I gave him my number, and that would come to be the biggest mistake I ever
made.
Tobi called me every
day, some days he called more than once, at night he would call and I would lay
on my bed and have phone sèx with him, his voice was so soothing, he made me do
things I never thought possible, he had gained so much access into my head, I
realized later I had done some very sick and twisted things just to please him,
I would take nudè pictures of myself, I would send him videos of me touching
myself in private, and send him voice notes of me making moaning sounds and
simulating orgà sms, and all this while we had not met, not face to face at
least, eventually I played into his hands, I began pestering to meet him in
person, at this point I had lost my mind, I assumed I was in-love with him, and
when my boyfriend at the time broke up with me, I really welcomed it, for me it
meant no more sneaking around.
Tobi eventually
agreed to come to Lagos to meet me, all this while he had made me to believe he
was in Calabar, and would take time off work to spend a weekend with me in
Lagos, when I heard this I was excited, he told me to book a reservation for
him, stating he would pay me back as soon as he arrived and also he said it
would make him more committed to the visit and would convince him of my
seriousness, I bought it all, he was smart, he was cunning, and I was stupid,
oh how stupid I was. The funny thing was I had sent him tons of pictures, and
all I had was just one picture of him, and whenever I asked he would claim he
wanted to be sure I loved him for him, and not for his looks, and sheepishly I
would try to convince him of my undying love, and would try to appease him with
nudè pictures of my body.
He eventually made
it to Lagos, I met him at the hotel, he was tall, handsome and had a wonderful
smile, he made love to me over and over, and convinced me to spend the night
with him, I told him I couldn’t, because I had a test the next morning, now at
this point I don’t know what triggered his anger, don’t know if it was because
I couldn’t spend the night, or maybe I said something else I can’t remember
saying, but whatever it was, brought out a very ugly side of him, he called me
foul names, and kept going on and on about how he always knew I was cheap, and
he knew I was sleeping with other men, the same man whom had swept me away,
slammed me on the floor, he told me of how he had shown his friends all my nudè
pictures and how they had watched the videos and listened to the voice notes,
he told me he had made a bet with his friends, that I would actually pay for
him to have sèx with me, just to prove how stupid I was, well you can imagine
how I felt, I was confused and shocked, but I attempted to regain any little
dignity I had left, and so I tried to mouth off at him, suddenly he punched me
in the face, and I tripped over, and hit my head on a stool.
The next thing I
remember was waking up on the bed, I was tied up, and he was staring at me, his
eyes were dark and he had a sinister smile on his lips, he stood up and walked
towards me ,I tried to scream and realized my mouth was tapped, my head was
racing, the unfortunate part was that no one knew where I was, he turned me
over, and told me he was going to teach me a lesson, at this point I was naked,
he rapped me from behind, and I mean my anus, the pain was mind blowing, I
struggled, and he hit me, when he was done he brought out a small blade, and he
looked at me for a minute and said, this scar is going to always serve as a
reminder, for girls like you always trying to be more than you are, for stupid
fools like you, he put the blade to my
nipple and cut it off, and anytime I think of it, I still feel the pain, it was like nothing I had ever felt before, he was calm, like he had done it a million times, I could feel the warm blood dripping down my mutilated breast, tears of fear and pain running down my face, and suddenly he turned around again, this time
all I saw was a flash.
nipple and cut it off, and anytime I think of it, I still feel the pain, it was like nothing I had ever felt before, he was calm, like he had done it a million times, I could feel the warm blood dripping down my mutilated breast, tears of fear and pain running down my face, and suddenly he turned around again, this time
all I saw was a flash.
I don’t know how I
survived it, but I woke up in a hospital days after, well I was
awake, but my eyes were swollen shut, It took a couple of days for me
to open my one good eye, and realize d damage he had done, he had plucked out
my eye, and cut my face, he had cut my breasts up real bad, they had to it out, like I had cancer or
something, there was no record of who I was, coz he had taken everything, he
had taken my bag, containing everything I had. I was able to tell the nurses
about what I could remember, and also give them my mum’s phone number, the
hospital felt so much pity, they actually treated me for free, hard to
believe right?
believe right?
Anyway I was taken
home after weeks at the hospital to recuperate, it was tough, I was blind in
one eye, I had one breast and a hideous scar of my face, talk about your
sinage, he did a number on me, how dumb was I, sometimes I wish he had killed
me, but there are fates worse than death, and I guess this is one of them, he
was gone without a trace, the receipt
from the hotel was in my name, so yes he had played me from the start.
from the hotel was in my name, so yes he had played me from the start.
I didn’t dare go
back to school, I was sure everyone would have heard, and I was not going to
become a statistic, so I decided to stay home, and mind my business, besides
what do I need an
education for, I’d rather stay home, because there is no rising from this, there is no happy ending to this story, this is the simple ending, I was a victim if a sèxual predator, and I let him into my life period, and I take full responsibility for that, I was driven by greed and lack of morals, I allowed myself fall into an abyss, but well saying all this doesn’t change anything, it’s a memory I will have to live with for the rest of my life, well not a memory, because I look at myself in the mirror everyday, who would want to see a nudè picture of a woman with one breast, one eye, and a stub.
education for, I’d rather stay home, because there is no rising from this, there is no happy ending to this story, this is the simple ending, I was a victim if a sèxual predator, and I let him into my life period, and I take full responsibility for that, I was driven by greed and lack of morals, I allowed myself fall into an abyss, but well saying all this doesn’t change anything, it’s a memory I will have to live with for the rest of my life, well not a memory, because I look at myself in the mirror everyday, who would want to see a nudè picture of a woman with one breast, one eye, and a stub.
I have decided to
publish my story, because with the rise of social media atrocities being
committed, every story can go a long way in saving a life, so while you read,
SHARE and help someone back to the right path, these internet predators are
real.
May Almighty God
Help us all. “Amen”
culled from nigerianweddings
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